This One's For You..
November 19, 2009
For all the bitches that looked down on me.
10:42 PM | comment
14 Mistakes.
November 17, 2009
So I've found this on a friend's blog, and thought I'd share it. Moreover, remind myself of reality.
Article is here.
Here's the excerpt from the article.
1. Thinking we'll never get over him. We will. Two months and several powdered donuts later... we'll feel better.
2. Spying. Hacking into email or phones looking for suspicious messages and then yelling at him for the "k thnx bye" text he sent to his female coworker two months ago.
3. Thinking our partners must be interested in everything we do, think, and say. When it comes down to it, we zone out when men talk about circuit boards. Right? Having a best friend or gab partner outside a relationship is a good thing.
4. Displacing. Freud was right with this one. If we're mad at him because he ate our tasty restaurant leftovers out of the fridge, tell him we're mad at him because he ate our tasty restaurant leftovers out of the fridge. Don't turn it into a commitment issue.
5. Expecting too much. Putting so much energy into the idea of a fairy-tale romance that we're disappointed with anything less.
6. Stagnating. Waiting for someone to find us, instead of going out and finding someone ourselves.
7. Slacking. Thinking that a perfect relationship should be easy. Relationships require work and compromise; a perfect relationship means doing those things well.
8. Isolating. Dropping our friends when we're falling in love. Friends help define who we are, and we need them when things get tough.
9. Fantasizing. Thinking that getting a boyfriend or husband will solve all our problems. No one can fix our lives for us!
10. Using the silent treatment. Our partners can't read our minds; he won't know what's wrong unless we sack up and tell him.
11. Denying. Denying that there's a problem in a relationship, instead of facing it and asking ourselves what needs to be done. Problems don't usually go away on their own. Letting them fester only makes it worse.
12. Standing alone. Thinking that depending on someone else is a weakness. Leaning on someone else sometimes is the sign of a healthy relationship.
13. Over-analyzing. There's analysis and then there's over-analysis. Wondering why the fiance didn't call once during his bachelor weekend in Vegas? A legitimate case for analysis. Wondering why he only called twice and not three times during a guys' night out? Not so much.
14. Trying to reinvent the relationship wheel. If some items on this list feel cliche, it's because they are! If we would only listen to a good dose of love advice now and again, we'd probably save ourselves some heartache.
02:25 PM | 3 commented
Total FAIL.
November 1, 2009
FUCK.MY.LIFE.
So i went to frequency on friday with Viola for some halloween event and I ended up losing my phone and camera. I was holding it in my hand (stupid, i know) and there was some fight and some drunkass knocked it out of my hand. It dropped and i couldn't find it again, with all the strobe lights and retards crowding around tryna dance. I don't give a shit about the phone or camera as much, it's just my personal info and pictures and shit that I care about. I was so fuckin cheezed. I spent almost 2 hours trying to search the floor and freaking out looking for it, and I had like a dozen people ask if I was okay since I was practically crawling on the floor like I was drunk out of my mind. Jing was helping me look for it for a while too and he was nice enough to let me use his spare phone. Who carries two phones on them anyways? Luckily he did. What a shit night. I was actually happy when the club kicked people out cuz of a bigger fight and people getting arrested and other people losing their phones and gucci bag. I am one sadistic mutherfacker. Still fuckin pissed though, since I had so many pictures on the camera. Night was total shit, got a ride home from Stephanie.
On halloween I had work, and after work Loc came to pick me up. I was looking forward to seeing him all day. Chilled at his place, had a beer and chocolate and half of Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning. Ended up sleeping over and then going straight to work the next day. Now in search of a new camera. Sony or Canon?
11:22 PM | 1 commented
Dig.
October 20, 2009
Like yesterday, today has been a fairly unproductive day. My midterms are in two days and yet I'm still procrastinating so much. I really want to study with someone. Well, maybe not study, but be around someone who's studying and can take breaks with, sorta like a motivational coach. Who am I kidding. I just want to study with someone I love so I can sneak in kisses in between here and there so reading won't be as boring. I never get what I want. For this whole day all I've read was chapter 1 of my microeconomics book. I still have a long way to go and writing in this blog is just an excuse to not be studying.
I was going through my old emails and stumbled upon some emotional stuff from my past. It has reminded me of how weak I was, and to never be that weak again. In a way I'm still the same but I don't want to be so vulnerable anymore. I regret a lot of things. What I don't regret is the journey.
07:45 PM | comment
Sweet Dreams.
October 19, 2009
This morning I woke up from one of the best sleep I've ever had. I had a few crazy dreams before this one particular dream that I awoke from.
I was in a darkened classroom watching an educational film. Sitting off to the side were just me and a faceless stranger. He had a face, but that of which I do not recognize. Although seemingly unfamiliar I felt like I've known him. We were sitting close. He nudged me to sit in front of him and as I did, I felt him gently caressed the skin on my exposed back. I was receiving a massage that melted me to the touch. For a dream, that felt pretty damn good. I started tracing my fingers along his neck and back, carefully unbuttoning his shirt and admiring every contour of his torso. Everything felt so right, so intimate, so passionate. Just a single touch made me not want to wake up. But I did, and I just lay there hoping to fall back asleep to continue where we left off. Just me and this friendly stranger.
11:05 PM | comment
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